Have you ever just pulled back away from what you are used to doing on an everyday basis? Have you taken a time out from your normal life to try and figure out what it is you’re looking for? I feel like I am constantly looking for something but I never really know what it is. In the last two weeks I have stopped writing, eating well, and thinking about the things in my life that bother me. I have been at my moms house every day helping her, because she had surgery on her foot. During those days I have had time to work on projects, eat healthy and ponder about life… but I chose not to. I gave the excuse that I was too busy to write. I was too busy to think about eating, plus I just wasn’t very hungry. And I really think I stopped over thinking certain situations going on in my life right now. In a way it was freeing but now I see that it was only a time out.
So after 14 days of eating hot tamales and potato chips, I woke up with a new motivation. It’s weird how life has its peeks and valleys. I would consider the last two weeks to have been the middle ground between my highs and lows. It’s almost as if everything has stood still. I don’t feel sad or happy. I don’t feel much at all to be honest. It’s an interesting place to be and I’ve never been here before.
As I sit here and write I feel a sense of pride and excitement. After all, I consider myself to be a writer. But one can not be a writer without writing. One can not be healthy without eating. And one can not progress in life if they are not willing to deal with each new situation and conquer it… So this is what this is. It is a new start. After being stagnant for 2 weeks I am ready to move quickly in a somewhat new direction.
Why do we go through these interesting times in our lives? Why are there questions that we can’t answer? And why are we content with continuing to experience confusing situations without getting to the bottom of why they are happening?
I think for me, for whatever reason, I needed to take a time out. I’m not sure why and to be honest I didn’t really even notice it was happening. Hours turned into days and those days quickly into weeks. They went by fast and I didn’t feel much but now I feel a sense of relief and motivation.
Have you had times in your life that things seemed to stand still? Have you consciously or unconsciously taken a time out?
Tell me about your experience… I would love to hear it!